December 2011
12 posts
On this Christmas eve,
I am empty, lost, and falling back into the pit hole of unbearable darkness where mortal desires consume my soul whilst suffocating my conscience.
DID
You know how they say our personalities vary around different groups of people? What if that variation is so starkly contrasting, you could jolly well be on the edge of sinking into a multiple personality disorder?
I didn't
I should be doing up HPB’s powerpoint deck
I should be getting ballpark costs for the various individual outsourced aspects of the project
I should be researching on similar case studies
I should be taking relevant screenshots and slicing them up with Picasa
I should be allocating budgets in Microsoft Excel
I should be creating a timeline for virtual chef
I should be on a diet
Mockery
It’s as though I have lost control of everything in my life in the past 2 weeks. This impending loss hangs and sinks the already heavy heart of mine.
Oh the irony of being seated in a lecture on Dissonance theory that mockingly mirrors my current thoughts and emotions. What’s the point of understanding your mental state through psychological theories when they only provide...
I can’t remember when was the last time I felt like myself. But then again, who am I?
Reid: You wanna know why horror movies are so successful?
Morgan: Why is that, genius?
Reid: They prey on our instinctual need to survive. In tribal days, a woman's scream would signal danger, and the men would return from hunting to protect their pack. That's why it's always the women and not the men who fall victim to the boogey man.
Seaver: Count on you, Reid, to break a movie down to science. My favorite thing about horror movies is the suspense factor.
Reid: Ahh, the ticking clock.
Seaver: The helpless victim walks through the dark. Shadows reaching out to get her.
Reid: A sudden noise draws her attention. Is someone there or is it just in her head?
“Luck is an attitude”.
There is no such thing as luck because you can create...”
– Martini
How low can you go?
What I’m currently experiencing may also be widely known as quarter life crisis - although it does seem as though it’s a decade premature. I am feeling completely overwhelmed by this buffet feast of what they call life. But like every fat kid at a sushi joint, I can’t not get my hands on every plate that the conveyer belt brings, with the exception of a few that I plan to grab...
Plain Reality
“The basic reality of God is plain enough. Open your eyes and there it is! By taking a long and thoughtful look at what God has created, people have always been able to see what their eyes as such can’t see: eternal power, for instance, and the mystery of his divine being. So nobody has a good excuse” Romans 1:19-20 (MSG).
Will I follow you into the dark?
Over dinner, it’s typical of me to display a tiny amount of superiority through the form of being highly opinionated about any topic I have the slightest idea about. Well before you judge me, I’m pretty sure you’re equally guilty of that too. Or lapping up all of the laksa gravy. That’s equally sinful.
In one of those recent moments with A over what I would like to...
I am now nothing but public
Yes I am back once again after countless frivolous hiatuses and “I am a private person” revelations, whilst in the midst of discovering that my need for self-expression was basically a hollow vacuum all along which varies from whom I had assumed my target market was for the day.
Let me justify myself through the claim that these “notes to self” (current and to come)...